Wifey Award of the Year?

Dear Friend,

This morning in my devotions I read, "Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." (1 Cor.10:31)

I really don't have a lot more to say about that devotional, but that little verse stuck out to me. Friend, I have been married now for a whooping two and bit weeks now (practically my 25th anniversary in Bible school years-- kidding! ;) )   and I already feel like I needed that reminder from God this morning. You see, I think I have been overdoing a lot of everything in order to please Adam. I want to think that it's because I am so in love with who he is and what a wonderful man he is, (and he truly is wonderful) but I am beginning to see that he has become an idol in my heart. For example, on a particular day I was determined to be the Betty Crocker/Martha Stewart of all women and clean the house and make the best meal I have ever made and have a super-cute-outfit-that-matched-the-drapes type day so that when Adam got home he would say, "By golly, what a perfect wife I have! How could life get any better than this?!" ( my imagination runs wild on such occasions) And though it was crazy, I was expecting "the glory of Adam to shine down on me". So when Adam came home from a long day of working seeing his wife smiling at him with all the hopes that the scenario in her head would pan out in real life-- he was doomed!

I am putting a lot of pressure on Adam to be my "god" and if I was honest with this verse I read this morning, my version would read, "Whatever you do, do it for the glory of Adam." I have been cleaning the bathrooms for the praise of Adam, I have been making meals for the glory of Adam... etc etc. Not only is that bad that I am putting God second in my relationships, it is putting a whole lot of pressure on Adam to be the b
est husband ever or else I could potentially have a mental break down and berate myself until my dying days! (I joke of course, but truly I would be a drama queen if I kept this up.)

I so love my life right now. It feels so good to be right where God wants me with my new husband doing all the new things. I am sure I could make excuses as to why my husband is so important to me because the"honeymoon stage" hasn't gone away yet or whatever, but I know better. I  know that God has blessed me with Adam to be his wife, however, as a wife I also have a bigger responsibility to be focused on Him and what He sees fit for me to change and do with the time I was given. These last few weeks have taught me already so much about myself and about Adam. I now know that for the rest of my life I will be learning how to be a better wife, and a better servant of Christ. I so badly want to glorify God with my life and I realize better now that that will include blessing Adam in the every day.

Your over-eager newly married hippy, 

Summer