Writing this blog post makes me uneasy, it makes me a tad scared. You see, I realize that I say that I am a hippy nomad, and I really do feel like one, but a huge side of me is still in denial. I am excited, I am freaking out, I might be doing something oh so very rash.
As you know for the last few months I have been looking for jobs. I will remind you of the day employment at Bubble Tea, (if you haven't read it, I must say, it's a laugh and a half ;) ) and some lessons learned in my "peach yogurt" moments. It has been incredibly hard being unempoyed and wondering what the next step is.
I applied at many different places here in Texarkana and nothing came up. Then, ya know, I expanded my search, because I was slightly nutty thinking of ways to get my life into gear. I was taking time to pray and to ask God what He wanted. And what I kept getting from our "chats" was trust. That would be it, just "Trust Me". I, being of a weird mind, talked back. I was like, "God, you realize I am trying to trust You but you have shut the door? I can't even get out the back door because that is closed too." Time passed, and I begin to get comfortable not doing much and you begin to stop worrying and start focusing on the good. Being with my family, the weather, the Sundayschool group that I am beginning to get to know, (even if it was "just" the five of us, I really enjoyed it.) volunteering at the pound with Kilah, and having the time to spend time with my grandparents and aunt and uncle. It's strange how life begins to have a pattern and you get used to waiting. I got a message from a young couple about being their live in nanny for their one year old in Grande Prarie, Alberta. I was excited but not hopeful. I was also hesitant. I like to be known as adventurous, but this was a stretch. "God, I know You want me to trust, but this is a bit nuts now that I think about it." I skyped them and they really do seem very nice.
I am taking the job. And all I can say is that, when God shuts the door (and the backdoor) and asks you to hop out the window, you better do so. I prayed for a job, and He provided. I prayed about not being complacent in my life- and He gave me this. I prayed that whatever it was that He would help me do it, and I am sure He will provide that too.
So, I'm heading to Alberta. I should be there at the end of the month/early April. The couple seem really sweet and have a baby that is about six months. I would love (and be honest and say need!) prayer. I will be doing meal prep and other things that go along with the job. They aren't Christians and I know that it will be a struggle at times. It is exciting, and I am blessed; but, completely nervous. I am still in denial and trying not to think about it too much. But, I realize that sooner than later it will be reality. When you ask God for the next step, be ready to jump. :)
Your hippy nomad,
Summer
