Dear Friend,
I had a very strange experience the other day. Though this might not seem strange to those who are introverted, for someone who is a self-claimed extrovert, this is quite an odd tale. You see, I was visiting a new church that I have been to on one other occasion. Normally I don't have fears of meeting new people- I like meeting new people; (And I enjoy what you can learn about a person in your first meeting, or how terribly wrong you are about your assumptions) making new friends is up there on the list of my favorite things! Oddly though I had a day as living like an introvert.
1. I was shaking hands with a sweet elderly man and my heart was beating fast and I was like, "Hey, calm down!" in my head.
2. The pastor eventually asked everyone to shake hands with your neighbor and be friendly and again this weird "oh my goodness I don't want to meet new people." was in my head.
3. I had a headache immediately and attempted to smile sweetly as I met some new people.
4.I met a few people my age at the church who seemed very nice but I was extremely shy and didn't want to make eye contact!
I know this sounds weird, but I was totally freaked out. After church was let out I was really happy to be out in the fresh and and breathe normally again. I wonder, am I becoming introverted or was that just a very weird moment for me? Truly, it was not like my character at all. Also, to the introverts out there, is this how you feel when you are in a new situation? I feel awful for you if it is.
I had flashes of me in my elderly state with my cats surrounding me and having no friends. If I was to analyse myself I would say I was (am??) going mad. What do you think?
Your slightly embarrassed hippy friend,
Summer
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